Over the course of the last few days, and I guess it’s been building for months and years now, I’ve realised that unless I take a leap and jump into what I really want to do in life, I’m never going to get there. What I really want to is to be able to work as a photographer, and to have the confidence to do so. But there seems to be so much to do. I would like to revamp my website but don’t want to spend money on it until the photos are representative of what I would like to do. So I need to sort through my wedding photos and choose a few to start me off. I hate the focus on my 350d kit lens, and a little scared about using my 50mm (I don’t know why!) so I’ve been putting it off until I get my new camera. I know I’m just making excuses for not starting but it’s really hard to break – especially when you’re working full-time anyway. So I need a plan, a plan to finish a few things off and get a few things started.
I need to finish: my NYC photos, because I was going to make a book for Lottie by Christmas; two big prints of Lago di Como for our bedroom – because I’m fed up of climbing around the empty frames!; module 2 of my SPI course – because I think it’s really going to help; watching Jasmine Star‘s amazing course from Creative Live – before I check out any more on Creative Live or Kelby. Switzerland is not equipped with classes that can help me and I need to find things on the net. I’m toying with the idea of contacting a local photographer to second shoot with but might need a bit more confidence still, let’s see how the year pans out.
I need to get some willing models both here and back in the UK for couples sessions, engagements, families and portraits (I might have a few guinea pigs in mind, arms to twist!); I need to work out spot metering and a better way to focus; I need to research getting perfect skin tones and crisp colours without over doing it; and I need to play more in Manual mode!
So, a few goals in hand.. I’ll let you know how I get on.